Consolidated Google Keep Notes
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Title:
Date: 2020-09-28 19:50:34
Content:
There was a time when I was happy
There was a time when I knew joy
What happened to that time
Why are you being coy
Show me the meaning of life
Show me that you exist
I don't want the secret
Just on what the others persist
I was once a dreamer
I thought I'd make it
Now all I see is darkness
Tell me, how do I get through this
I guess it's too much to expect blue skies every day
Maybe today is just overcast
I hope to see the sun lit greens tomorrow
Forget the blues that drown me in sorrow
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Title:
Date: 2020-08-04 21:49:51
Content:
Do you know what it feels like
To be standing at the edge of the world
Waiting for somebody to tip you over
If you do, then you know what Sushant felt
Full of the world's regrets
Nothing to hope for
No matter how successful
It hits rich and poor
Just like the pandemic
Nobody really knows why
Until a shot in the dark
Lights up the room
6 years of popping pills
And I still feel like I'm just where I started
Is it because the rug was pulled from under me
Or is it because this world is full of shit
When death comes
Then you must go
There is no escape
From the truth of life
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Title: A Balm
Date: 2023-12-31 00:30:21
Content:
I don’t know you
Yet I lie naked for you
My scathed body of work
May give you solace in knowing
You’re better off
Knowing your happiness
Than living the suffering
Rub that balm on yourself
Soon you’ll be covered and wanting more
Like an addict
Acceptance is the first step
In your awareness of the disease
My fatefulness has been your fortune
The rest wasn’t meant to be
It’s all in the chemistry
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Title: A cloudy independence
Date: 2022-08-14 01:52:07
Content:
Partition is never what it seems
Being torn at the seams
Leaves you incomplete for ages
A whole that never fills, just ponder for the sages
Oh happy day, 75 and beyond
I look at you, know shining like a young girl of five
The day you tied up all those knots
Prayers were all answered, hearts were full
Now you lead with love
A strange feeling mixed with fiery elements
A movie that wasn't made for me
But I watch nonetheless
The next 75, my dear dear fellow
I see us strong and secure, like a slow yellow
Victory, of peace over else please
Victory, of hearts & minds, as one body of thought
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Title: A life less lived
Date: 2023-04-19 17:49:56
Content:
Birthed in a cozy dream
Awoken to the nightmare of reality
All it took, were a few words
All it did take, was the last word
Stay away, they said of his disease
A contagion he is, like a fly stuck to skin
Akin to a hammer hit on my head
I've been a fly on the wall, and it took my all
No going back
No point of any of this
But in the hallway of dreams
I wish i could drop the ball
Help; an unhelpful word
Cry for it, try and see
In a life less lived
All you can hope for, is to be free
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Title: A truly reflective and forward looking piece of work
Date: 2020-10-17 19:47:34
Content:
The author started out her career 35 years ago by having to confront the prevalent sexist discrimination, as faced by every woman, during her very first salary increment. This book, is an expression of that experience blended with her personal philosophy which paints a very real picture of the modern workplace through interviews of other successful women from a wide variety of industries. It has made me more acutely aware of the challenges faced by women, which is otherwise just taken for granted.
She offers her own thoughts and suggestions on specific issues, which help in getting this discussion going. Any solution though, requires deep change at the cellular levels of society, which righly pointed out in the book begins with the attitudes ingrained in boys and girls at home. I myself believe that your career isn't born from graduating college, because none of what is taught in schools can prepare you for the world of work. The values and principles inculcated by parents and teachers are what hold you in good stead, and that is what is needed by the men of today and the women of the future - the ones this book gives hope to.
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Title: Accepting my journey
Date: 2022-10-15 19:14:05
Content:
Rejected became my middle name
In finding acceptance from this world
I found that charity does begin at home
And without a noble cause I came home
The weight on my shoulder that goes unseen
Every day i remind you that I don't need
Their rejection, 'cause I have my own
My values my only friend
Find joy my boy
Joy in the air you breathe
You'll never run out of the the freshness you seek
Drink in the memories and savour the gifts you got
This is where you are
This is where it begins and ends
Without here, there is no journey to tell
Tell me, you having fun yet?
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Title: Always ready to let go
Date: 2022-04-16 01:34:41
Content:
Love means letting go
Of the pain that never leaves you
The money that lets you know
Leaving you powerless to the slavish
This world runs on trust
Fear is what drives us
What if today was your last
I'd like a mango please
Stuttering my way to the finish
Drowning in the meaninglessness of people
I wanna swim away, into the mouth of perpetuity
Lay back, and watch the sun set on this dream
Learning to love myself
Using ig to let go
Nothing else to hold on to
What would i do without these two
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Title: An item number
Date: 2022-09-02 00:27:29
Content:
Hey can you dig this rhyme
Get down and shake your booty like a mime
It's way past my bed time
But your moves are keeping me up nine nine
I see wha'chya mama gave ya'
Now show me the ticker that keeps you pumped
If I could give you what you wished
I'd snap my fingers in a beat, then could we meet?
Back to how this night feels
Up in smoke, I'm down to my knees
The floor still ain't enough for ya'
So we take the show to the streets
Where the real artists perform
Unlike whatsapp proform
Me toh hu item number
Chahu bus tera number, meri pasoori
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Title: Art
Date: 2021-02-27 22:35:52
Content:
The economy of words
In pain
Best left unsaid
Hurt
Left in the shadows
Like the regret of a sunrise
Setting on your dreams
Worldly
Unbelievable
Achievable
Any day
A perfect moon
Revolving around your life
Think deep
Express nothing
But for the unspoken
Truth beyond power
My friend
Who sits quiet beside
Says it all without
Speak up
For those without voice
Begging for mercy
Escape from this system
Poverty of man
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Title: box of numbers
Date: 2020-10-06 20:46:46
Content:
think without pride
The unpoppable bubble
Bouncing around in the vaccum sealed sea
the world is finite
your world is infinite
want to go backwards
relive the lived
unlive death, disappear into birth
reborn undead
miss the sunlit every day
stare at the open sky
unable to fly
God is not outside
The reason is within you
Find your purpose
Nothing to set you apart
Just ways to come together
The meaning is to remain grounded
Blinding faith
Call to arms
Pen mightier than sword
Astrophysicists and historians
Come together
Live today for what it's worth
Nothing more
Build your box
Make your bed
Sleep in it
Stillness lies outside
why is there life?
Pain is the price for survival
Joy is the gift of the present
Love is where there is no fear
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Title: Build build build
Date: 2022-01-20 23:40:13
Content:
On these foundations
Where the sands of time meet the shores of clay
One day it stops
You may meet your maker
Not these flights of fantasy
A teacher in a room full of legos
THIS is the only thing i profess
Unmanaged, unprojected, a disjointed merge
Fight with myself
In the market of likes
Diss mark of self respect
Burnt by the fire of my sign
Build on forgiveness
Build on acceptance
Build on forgetting
Break down the meddling muddling lyricist
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Title: Building from scratch
Date: 2022-11-27 17:44:39
Content:
Ambe Maa
Never forget
Saalo saal
Baras beete
Baras baras ke vardaan ki baarish
Khud samajne ki takat
Khud banane ka sahas
Khud dekhne ki dillagi
Dil lag gaya
Aur me udd chala
Neele peele kaale samandar me
Uss jagah jahan tann mann dhann sab paaye
I wrote this from scratch
I built myself from zero
I'll never get to a 100, but
50 of these moments make my life complete ❤️
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Title: Bumble 2.0
Date: 2022-10-03 08:21:46
Content:
Third time's a charm
Keep calm; & carry on
Shy, kind, and kinda worn
Hello there, miss unkown 🤝
Born in delhi, raised in good ol' Bombay
A couple relationships, one minor, one pretty major
Major heartbreak, and I was back in the city I love
Never been around, lookin' for one with to town
Single to double, let's get in some trouble
Fight and make up, oh how I love the highs & lows
Come fly, fly away with me
We'll call it a day, and plant the roots to our tree
I ain't no perfect guy; I've been there and back
But if you're willing to accept me in the black
Life will be full, pure, and sincere
My o my, girl you have my word 💖
Do we have to like the same things?
I mean you like me, and I like you
But you aren't like me
And I'm not like you
That said, we can love the same things
If it's true, maybe you'll be in the mood too
Until then you beauty
See you soon 💞
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Title: Can i go home now?
Date: 2021-06-19 19:34:35
Content:
When will this curse lift
When will the earth shift
Why cant i be a poet when i grow up
Why cant i stuff myself and not throw up
Oh god these quarrels of old
Unfixable the race of sapient fools
Cant i just do my time
And not remember the crime
Running from his benevolence to his wrath
Futile the days on this war path
What would we do without you
O sweet caroline
Now get off my back
Let me to my bag i must pack
What rhythm is this again
Someone said so i say quatrain
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Title: Cheating
Date: 2022-01-01 18:16:57
Content:
When you love someone, are they yours
What is this bond, is it physical or some other
Can you love thousand years, can you ache too
Can it rain for thousand, will you know the end
What if there was somebody else
How do you remain within society's norms
How do you be honest with yourself
Do you actually love yourself
Hopelessly lost
How do you reconnect
Find your faith
Blindsided by the bast*rds of realness
Dear kind soul
Do what feels right
Be sincere
It's all a judgement call, neh?
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Title: Children of content
Date: 2021-12-22 21:53:16
Content:
Full of themselves
What is meant to be will be
Without an up there wouldn't be a down
Left to right all those in between
Respected but not feared
Ten long years
I'll never forget the tears
Moving on, can't help but look in the rear
This isn't some party
Misery evolves to maturity
What do i know
Just sitting here with my doggie
Being told no, and still able to go
He returned after long, with the flute player
And my stars started shining again
Yo invictus, children killing in the name of peace
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Title: Depend on the external
Date: 2021-04-16 19:46:43
Content:
Don't shout
Accept what is your fair
Countable moments
Forgive yourself for everything
Selfishly detach from societal shoulds
Luv dad
But love self
Find
Somewhere in between
All the world's affairs
Your corner
Just and peaceful
Like mom
Medicine for the soul
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Title: Did you know..
Date: 2022-06-27 23:00:12
Content:
In the noise of the world, I sometimes forget
That I'm not good enough for myself
In the anger that rages on
With the checked-out travelers on board
I'm reminded, to trust no one
That time has gone
When I could have killed someone
Now the only one I can kill, is me
Carrying this burden on my shoulders
All I dream about, is crumbling under
The only truth about life, is that it hurts
Turned out nothing like what i thought
Just a big let down instead, a mirror to my face
I live in a dark place, with no sunshine or rain
The long winter of discontent, buried in snow
Drugs failed, so did the excitement of strangers
I am now all I know, a near dead has been
Hope, a miserable picture of incomplete colours
Cheated by the person in an instant
Pursuit of pleasure, left a hole bigger than me
Those were good times, when I didn't care
No matter how disturbed I may have been
But that's nostalgia, my fool brained friend
One too far away and one too close for comfort
What am i, but a bundle of repairs long overdue
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Title: Dil ke mareez
Date: 2021-12-10 22:15:45
Content:
A shoulder to cry on
A child of golden flame
Whose to blame
Heart full of shame
Dhue me udta chala
Apne फिक्र मुझे बता चला
Angrezi sikhana रह गया
पैसों को सफ़र में उड़ाता गया
A yogic breath of patience
इस युग का breadth, इक बेहतरीन भाग
Part primordial, part immemorial
इस दिल को बहलाता chal
चन शब्द के पल
चन शब्द ले चल
Chhan chhan करे घायल
इस मरीज़ को कर गया पागल
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Title: Distant
Date: 2023-07-21 22:39:11
Content:
From everything
So far and away
Stranded on this island of saditude
An attitude, filled with this world of angst
Born to a city of dreams
Broken by the valley of tears
Alone but unable to live with myself
Floating further away from shore
Maybe a sailor will come
A captain with courage
The one within
Who calls the shots
Drift into a mountain of hope
Bump so hard it's unmissable
Miss sunshine of my life
With kind regards, bring me closer to me
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Title: Does power, institution, an honest buck truly exist?
Date: 2022-02-23 18:58:05
Content:
Naked greed
Talent meets opportunity
Invitation to fall
Life always finds a way..but what's the point of all this wondering
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Title: Don't expect humanity
Date: 2021-04-16 18:17:15
Content:
Strategy
Power inside and out
I just wanna babble
Don't be sorry for anything
Corporate bullshit
Covers every sufferer
Sacrifice myself
At the altar of traveling pants
Independence a distant dream
Slow things down
Outlook is limited
Ignore all the tedha talk
Straight through your voice
Words on paper
Burnt but etched in my soul
Owing gratitude for the borrowed air
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Title: Feeling that feeling
Date: 2022-10-16 16:10:29
Content:
My stomach in knots
As I lie in wait
For death to come
Flee from this pain
The anguish of being so close
Yet so far from life
Alive! Oh to feel that feeling again
The love of doing, choosing, and pursuing
Is it too late to fall in love?
Has my train left the station?
Is my coffee ready yet?
I'll never know, till I do
Please don't read this
Don't tell me not to write this
Let me smoke my cigarette
It's all that's left in this ignorant bliss
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Title: Feelings are free
Date: 2022-01-01 21:37:44
Content:
What does it cost you?
To empathise and sympathise
Time? Money? Really?
Nothing!
Literally
But it's the most precious thing
Everybody has it
Everybody wants it
Dissolved in the mud
Wet your feet
The ocean you will meet
As blue as the sky forever
Wash off the dirt, cleanse your being
For the eye far reaching
I'm just a privileged pauper
All i get is what I'm seeing
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Title: From where i stand
Date: 2022-03-29 23:46:19
Content:
From where i stand
Life looks difficult
It all seems hopeless
Storyteller chooses
A book of wrongs
Unrecorded
Don't get too comfortable
It's all temporary
A time that doesn't exist anymore
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Title: God epitomises our selfishness
Date: 2022-06-21 20:42:27
Content:
When we want a job
When we want money
When we want love
When we want escape
We go to him
We go to her
We go to them
We go again
When we have a job, we give him money
When we have money, we give her rice
When we have love, we give them flowers
When we have escaped, we give it up
The money is his, the rice is hers
And the flowers are theirs
All we want, is to give, give, give
Then go again
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Title: Guided by the unknown
Date: 2020-08-05 19:03:21
Content:
A force none understand
But felt by every one
Different names
Different games
We all must ultimately bow
To the truth
We must return
From whence we came
A haphazard flow
Has been the course I've had to follow
Not a traditional fellow
Haven't given up, maybe a couple bellow
Returned from the edge
Don't know where to next
But always felt the invisible hand
Cluing me towards
Might be alone in law
But words never let me be
Having you to express those to
Gives me solace, brings a smile on my face
Thank you for being there
Thank you for being here
Thank you for showing me the way
Thank you for not giving it away
I plan to embrace my fear
To show you my dear
From the bottom of my heart
Here's to the future
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Title: Hawa hawaii
Date: 2020-08-31 21:28:02
Content:
Ye jo hawa chal rahi hai
Ye jo samay badal raha hai
Ye jo hawe me log bol rahe hai
Issi hawe pe duniya chal rahi hai
Ye jo mooh ka swad machal raha hai
Ye jo geeli hawa chal rahi hai
Tumhe kya batau
Iss hawe ka kya asar ho raha hai
Ye jo paiye chal rahe hai
Ye jo panchi gun guna rahe hai
Jo hawe ka anand utha rahe hai
Issi hawe pe duniya chal rahi hai
Ye jo hawe ka jhoka pad raha hai
Ye jo gussa noke ka utar raha hai
Ye jo dost lad rahe hai
Kya batau, hawe ka asar iss duniya pe
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Title: Hello, friend
Date: 2021-07-21 20:27:34
Content:
My first name is dhruv
I've not got much to prove
I'd like to live the life of my dreams
If only I could find the means
I'm a wannabe poet, as you can tell
If there's one thing about me, I could sell
It'd be the fact that I'm honest and bare
Hey, I'm bipolar; Go ahead judge, do you care?
I don't ask for much, just a hand to hold
Maybe don't let go, until we grow old
Old school, and committed
A li'l shy, pop me open and you'll find uninhibited
0 to 60, let's take it slow
How about we start with a hello?
If I haven't bored you already
I'd like to add you friend, 'cause hey you're steady
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Title: Honesty is a scam
Date: 2022-08-27 22:52:56
Content:
Cleaned up for being clean
Taken to the cleaners by the dirtiest of our breed
Soldiering on like a good guy does
Duty bound till the end, the ends of the earth
The myths they instill in a child
The rights that don't exist
The wrongs that last forever
The only true, part of the wild
Cheated by mothers and wives
Words, slights, no knives
No dinner, a sinner, tears of a winner
The soundtrack goes nonstop, until music dies out
Don't mourn the death of my friend
Celebrate that there existed in the jungle, a flower
Let the sweet smell in, smile if you're scheming
I lie in the bed I've made, not alone just beaming
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Title: How to do kind
Date: 2023-04-20 00:00:49
Content:
What is the meaning of kindness
No place for what I believe
People like me are outdated
Pulling a fast one; name of the game
Life has been kind to me
I don't know why
I've been lazy and ungrateful
Not deserving, but blessed by a kind of grace
Get a picture of your journey
Look at how you've grown
Who do i thank
How do i repay the kindness
Money has remained an imaginary friend
There in times of need; disappears so often
I'm tied to this earth now
No longer letting go, struck by a kind mind
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Title: How to love you
Date: 2020-09-25 21:30:23
Content:
I know you're there
I found you on a very dark day
All you do is show me signs of life
Why didn't you just let me go?
Now I struggle without you
I listen for you in music
I watch for you in words
I find you in the food I eat
If I gave up everything to love only you
I'd be finished
The way it began
I'd not know which way to go
I can't wait
For the day I get to give up everything else
And sit only in your essence
RSVP with your presence
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Title: How
Date: 2021-07-19 22:07:51
Content:
How do I tell you this is all gonna go
How do I tell you I'm not gonna stay
How do I tell you what I'm not supposed to say
How do I know what i know is so
How do i gather my thoughts and feel in control
How do i exercise restraint and not lose hope
How do i get what i want
How do i find what i need
This is the only thing i see in my feed
This is the only way i can firmly plant my foot
This is the only piece of rope I have
This is the only person i can be
You've been here before, and you'll be back again
You can hold my hand, while I try to swim ashore
You're the only one who knows, so don't let go
Now that we're out here, how bout a cuppa joe
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Title: Humans made it unfair
Date: 2024-05-05 19:47:50
Content:
life was always survival of the fittest
but survival of the richest? I hate that about us!
made us cheap, lying, conniving pieces of shite
is that nature, nurture, or just a doomed future
laws and morals torture the honest
one-eyed kings lead us blind men
and a blind lady weighs the truth worth every pound of flesh
we were born to suffer; that is the only wisdom
growth and progress have left us losers to degenerate
alone in this hyper connected world; where do we go
innocence leads us down a dirty rabbit hole of repercussions
awareness is your only hope; awakened to the technological marvel of self
this is a dead man's rant
the autobiography of a naive man-child
if i were to define myself by likes and comments, my dictionary turns up null
agree to tracker cookies, that is our saving grace
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Title: I am Nobody
Date: 2021-11-16 22:00:41
Content:
Nobody took the time to understand
Nobody cared
Nobody knew
Wiped off the face of this planet
Like the last time I smiled
Laughed belly up
Felt natural for a picture
Not ashamed to show me; dismorphed
That was the India I grew up in
That's the India I don't want to be in
I feel for Vir
Not free to be you, trolled by patriots; diaspora
Will nobody let me do me
Trapped by privilege
This dichotomous condition
My crutch; to walk away
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Title: I cheated 2022
Date: 2023-01-01 19:09:42
Content:
Ye naiyya kabhi bhi doob sakti thi
But I made it through
Ab do hazaar teis
New me new you
Intezaar karu
Us pal ka
Jab humare beech koi deri nai
Bus us shan ki deri hai ab
Jab saare saal, mahine, din aur ghante ek ho
Hamara ek parivar ho
Aur hum dono ka ek hi hath
Mere dil me bus rahe apka sath
I can't wait for the day Minu
When in on breath, are I and You
Your presence fills me with love
And for that I thank the One above ❤️🙏
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Title: I once met a pretty girl
Date: 2022-11-20 00:59:20
Content:
She reduced me to dust
Then I rose up again
Like a dead flower in a garden showered by rain
The words started to flow like drops from a leaf
The questions the clouds raised reminded me
Of the sun I couldn't see through the blackness
My dreams disappeared, and through it I saw
The gift of the present
Moments of elation and years of living in valleys
Brought me to his alley, the one lit by magic
A vision for the future, sparked by men & women
Battling for realness, closeness and endlessness
That girl is long gone, and now stands a boy
With an umbrella, under a blue sky
In the desert of deadness, find this love note
Read it, and let it slip back into the river of flow
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Title: I wish i could explain
Date: 2023-06-18 19:33:18
Content:
How do i tell you
What essen's vision means to me
To the world it's a company & to you it's security
But to me, for 4 years it was home
Not second, not first, but the only place
Where I found fulfillment, in work and myself
Where I found friends, in the saniyas shrutis sailys
Names were many, but my feeling was the same
You called me motha bhai, and i took it to heart
Treated everyone like part of my soul
The family has grown, and so many faces known
It's been a privilege to serve and give my whole
What comes next is not another chapter or role
The book of EV is a volume to preserve
A memory to cherish, an emotion to deserve
Forever in debt, I move on with hope for new home
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Title: If there is such a thing called love
Date: 2021-06-03 21:11:56
Content:
It is not out there
It is not in people
It is not in things
It is in something called you
Don't look for it
What will you find
Fleeting moments slipping away
Never to be had again
Recognise it
It is happiness
It is contentment
You cannot have more or less
Meaning can be found in syllables
Purpose is the meaningless end
If i ever loved you
It was because in you, i found my
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Title: In black and white
Date: 2022-01-02 12:36:01
Content:
This melange of grey
Life can be gay
Beyond your means
Looking for Jack's magic beans?
Point a gun at this stock
What is home
Where this brain can breathe
We need the struggle to keep going
Talking to imaginary people
Relationships that don't exist
Culture of getting high
Life's party bound to deal you lows
For all that is True
There ain't no life outside this big blue
Whatcha lookin' for
The end of this goddamn flu
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Title: In solitary: the beggar
Date: 2021-12-13 19:08:30
Content:
I am with bowl in hand, at the stoop of economy
As well traveled as a taxi cab
Being as well informed as a curious passenger
You gimme your prayers, my pir will give my tide
Hungry for peace, find a home in his abode
The essence of this word, the atom of atman
Listening for the end, hear the path to destiny
A student of history, driven to tell tales of yonder
Never one to ponder, left unswept the lone gun
मैं खड़ा बीच मोड़ पे, सब जा रहे तितर बितर
कोई देख नही रहा, इधर इधर
इधर खड़े भक्तों के पीर, आए देने भक्ति की खोज
अब कहाँ जाओगे, हमारे साथ गाड़ी में चलो दिल्ली
बैठे बैठे, इतिहास की चार बातें कर ली
और चाचा हंसके बोले, कुछ गलती हो गई तोह माफ कर देना
दो लाइनों का क्या मत्लब, जब तक आप गौर ना फरमाएं बेटा
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Title: In your august company
Date: 2023-08-03 00:58:06
Content:
My bub my sab my rab
I didn't think it could or would
But love has taken over me again
And i am full, of emojis :)
Reaffirmed and restored
Perseverantia et Fide in Deo
Time it took
Took from me, a youngling
Older but weary, from the past
Passed through a system
Of struggle, supported by steadfast peeps
Peeps who loved and loved and loved
Despite all my disbelief
I am alive
Alive with love
Alive with life
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Title: It's not about me
Date: 2022-01-15 19:46:48
Content:
Never has been
All the beauty in the ugly
The flow of the feel
Letting go of the sticky
If it weren't for you
Would have left a long ago
Being around no more
Something better than nothing
Emptied of so much
A template the only glow
Let's just tie the knot
Figure out the rest as we grow
From one to two
Say i do
Before you go
Adopt me too
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Title: Kiska kasoor
Date: 2022-09-20 23:16:29
Content:
Do ghante ki khushi me
Me bhul gaya iss zindagi ko
Kiska kasoor ki samay aage badhta gaya
Aur woh yaadein fir aa gayi
Do mint ki iss zindagi me
Kya janu kya sahi kya galat
Kiska kasoor ki ye dil na samjhe dimaag ki baate
Dil ruk jayega par dimaag chalta rehta
Wo ek din aayega jab me bhi ruk jauga
Uss din ye pal shayad yaad aaye
Toh dimaag samajh paye
Kiska kasoor ki ye gana kisi ko samaj na aaye
Kuch toh bol mere heer
Koi kasoor nai tumhare dil ka
Kasoor mera dil bola par samjha na paya
Iss sukoon ki raat me shayad dil ko shanti mil jaye
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Title: Kyu
Date: 2021-02-13 10:14:10
Content:
Kyo ki tum ho
Jaise tumhe hona
Aise hi
Raho
Ummeed
Seekh
Pyar
Mujhe karo, bina kuch kahe
Bus ek shabd
Chahiye tumse
Hi
Aur me, niche se upar tak shy guy
Aasman me udta
Jaise hawai jahaj me, tum muje le jate
Zameen par utarta, tumse milne, woh ehsas karne
Jo bin seemit, sach ❤️
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Title: Letting go of the day
Date: 2021-11-26 23:35:08
Content:
Nothing to seize
Left with just the remnants of a dream
Nothing to grasp
The right to expression curtailed by vocabulary
Nothing to give
When we're all just beggars in the golden city
Why did I call him a fool
When all I wanted was him to hold my hand
Nothing in return
Except the ashes and dust of this world
He was my friend
And I wept knowing he was leaving me behind
Nothing to know, but know that I am unable
Unable to let go
Because from where I came
Nothing is the river in which you wash it all away
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Title: Life is a second chance
Date: 2023-04-17 18:49:48
Content:
Whoever said you only get one shot
Was the emperor with new clothes
As long as you can, life is a chance
Take a chance on me
I've lost count of
The number of missed calls
The cheats who laughed all the way to the bank
Only to be defeated by that steely eyed look
What will the world think of you
Is the drive behind leaving an impression
You can teach nothing
But child like innocence absorbs everything
Choosing to live is hard
The difference between surviving and thriving
Like a good night's sleep
Her beauty seen late in the day
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Title: Listening to the crickets
Date: 2022-09-22 23:42:26
Content:
On a quiet night
Do you listen for the stories
Do you hear them chirp out loud
Do you find the happiness and sad among them
Do you feel like chirping too
I'm like a cricket
Screaming at the moon
Angry that he doesn't chirp back
It's been ages
Since I heard a good story
One filled with hope, desire, and will to overcome
Maybe that's what the moon's saying, quietly
Tomorrow's a bright shiny day
Maybe the crickets will return
Maybe the moon will finally speak
Or maybe, the sun will outplay them all, at it's peak
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Title: Living a cancelled life
Date: 2022-09-22 20:08:52
Content:
No bonus
No incentive
No reason
Just a breath that hasn't fucking stopped
No people
No things
No nothing
Just a death that doesn't fucking end
No song
No one to long
No more
Just a rhyme that is fucking stuck in my head
No words
No birds
No fucking fucks given
Just a kind god that shows this strain on my way
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Title: Living a creative life
Date: 2024-06-16 21:41:53
Content:
Free from the hunger of expectation
Your thirst quenched by sipping from your own stream
No longer just a job, something you do
Drives you and keeps awake through the night
Wake up to a new day, the rest of your life
The sun's rays as bright as your mind
Racing with thought, barrelling through purposeful ideation
Design your thinking with curiosity and fashion a way ahead
Tasked with what bears fruit
Seek not that basket of your labour
But just the thrill of the ride; trust the process
Winners and losers a construct of man's game; your expanse as wide as the egress
Live with words, live within your world
Name your plays
Find your place
Imagination the source of your bread
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Title: Living in the was
Date: 2022-04-27 00:31:47
Content:
Letting unmanifested wills have their way
The truth that was, is no more
What you choose, is the story to tell
Respect rather than pride, that is your self
Pay by kind rather than coinness
Thank you कविता, you have been my dear
All these words, speak to me like a seer
Surviving in society, run by unspoken bonds
So many relationships, short and long
Why define life by one; gather and divide by all
Let's make it to eleven
Maybe that will be my heaven
This world wasn't made for you, the one by us
The one by you, that's far gone
Now where to? There ain't no way home
Of what I remember, true, the rest evolute
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Title: Living with a memory
Date: 2020-09-12 18:49:37
Content:
How to not go mad
O mere preet
Menu baksh de
Pacify me with your voice
I'm not unique
Me nahi masih
Bus meri kahani hai meri
My story is just like yours, except the vision
iss sab ka matlab nahi pata mujhe
kya hai bhasha ka asar
sometimes words are not enough
Even from the most eloquent orator
I guess love never goes away
Born out of it, how can we live without
iss duniya ke khel me, somebody to play with
My friend, mere yaar, mere naal, मत्सखि, dil ki sacchi
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Title: Love is destined to find you
Date: 2023-03-02 19:55:46
Content:
Being normal in a bipolar world
With fantasies that ruin lives
Fairness that destroys perspective
Moving on from a self sabotaging bastardization
I've been stuck for so long
Like this record that wants to play but can't
Because the damn machine is broke
I'd like to blame the world for my troubles
Truth is, there's something wrong with me
Just like the other 7 billion of us
Words and all are just blotches on a dirty wall
I've resigned, to the fact that there's nothing more
For me, it's all bonus
If only I could see
The way love sees
Without sight, sound, round or bounds
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Title: Love makes you fat
Date: 2022-05-15 23:28:15
Content:
Life is inherently boring
Am "I" just a byproduct of evolution, or an attachment to a digestive system?
I wrote this to escape myself
Wherein lies the outward locus of control?
My burden, the ire, none to hire, or put out the fire
I used to have friends, now all i need to meet are make ends
The one who's sure about "us", maybe I find him
I think I should have been a lawyer instead of a damn babysitter
Nice people do exist, but you see them only on airplanes
This page is a reflection of what I've tried to build
For the people that know me, i finish last
For those that don't, i left unfinished
Life's all 'bout fightin', with aplomb
Synergies n seamlessness, 'tis all shit
We're all afraid
Just degrees to which it hijacks differentiate
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Title: Loving the feeling
Date: 2021-12-27 09:33:51
Content:
Many a word to justify
But nothing to quantify
The troughs and peaks of this condition
Didn't get any of the songs until this rendition
Flow, i didn't know, is what they were all after
Strange, the glow, was just waiting for a muse
Without breaking fuse, I'd drive-thru laughter
Afraid of the dark, this pole denies me direction
This life is simple, as plain as a rose
Coloured, thorny, evokes beautiful prose
The air, smells as sweet as the goddess's feet
Her hair, my silly heart skips a beat
Enough said, so much to see
Escape again, this bite of reality
If only I could know now what I knew then
The world wouldn't be my upside down zen
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Title: Make or Break
Date: 2021-05-15 20:11:10
Content:
It's been long
Long since I've felt this way
Like I have only myself
To depend on
To move
They move with you
But it's you
You whose gotta say "let's go"
Come on
Come on this way
Maybe this is where we oughta be
They come
And they stay
Never to leave
But say "we made it"
Yes, yes we did, "together"
You are separate, only from the truth
You are true, only to you
You are you, only to me
I am not me, just a mutation that made it thus far
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Title: Marriage
Date: 2021-12-08 19:39:55
Content:
Saying no to the world doesn't come easy
Not accepting myself is second nature
Opportunities to connect are my cue
Nurtured by the unquestioning curiosity
The place where you and I meet
Is nowhere but a time when I don't know me
Only the grown ups can see
That i am as incomplete as the city around me
Opening up not for a partnership
A sole wanderer solely wondering
Asking for a soul is impropriety, mate
Spare the courts & jesters, for this party of three
I've been told, what is your non negotiable
I'm not so bold, to judge what society offers
As-is, what's on the agenda is thee
Seeking one's people, found the world in she
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Title: Medit
Date: 2020-11-08 23:40:07
Content:
Trust self confi
Accept new want
Let go old
Expectation need uncond
Control breath choice
Patience time peace
Centre observe find
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Title: Money heist - are you in?
Date: 2021-04-21 21:59:15
Content:
One day there will be a place
Jaha paisa nai chalega
Sirf hum honge
Hum tum, me you, and us
You know them
Those who want the loot
They will look on with wonder
That how can such a place exist
Where there is respect, love, and reality
The reality of us all being the same
No fake names
Just your self
Where twisted words dont work
Words are not things
But just placeholders for expression
Of the consciousness that wants out
#Whereairisfree
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Title: MRP: Cost of civilization
Date: 2022-02-09 23:52:47
Content:
God, country and family
Money, respect and pride
What do you pay to stay alive
Who do you pray to slay the live
Maladjusted
Mental health stigmatized
Weak through the week
Win every day
Strongarm sire
Generous, wise, passive aggressive
A stepping stone
Turning point known only in hindsight
Family party
Family room
Family business
Home eq heart
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Title: Nice guys finish last
Date: 2021-12-19 05:36:11
Content:
Don't take pity on me
Take this pithy from me
I'm no tough snuff
Made from the purest of luff
Tired of writing shitty insta fluff
No meter no hope to meet her either
An ephemeral line from the ether
A scavenger seeking out words from the nether
Hanging on to the world's worries
Weathered by storms in teacups
Huff, puff and chuff; A whole lot of bluff!
My pain is my business, expression to yours isn't
A poem that takes a selfie of our struggles
A bomb that makes one self reflect
None of this to deflect, from the price of nice
As effortlessly as this came to, you'll le'go of, me
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Title: No one will ever know
Date: 2021-12-07 00:41:06
Content:
The thoughts that come
How low they can go
When you needed it most
Is when you knew no more
And now all you want
Is somebody to show
The scars that you wish you could throw
But with you they just grow
Those rascals on the top floor
Who's gonna show them the door?
Dance, dance some more
You see..the flow?
They're playing your song
Don't you wanna do your encore
Hey, I might be slow, but don't you know
I'm the one for whom the bell tolls
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Title: Old bumble
Date: 2022-10-03 08:21:41
Content:
If there's one thing about me, I could sell
I'm a wannabe poet, maybe you can tell
Open and honest, I lay it all bare
Bipolar; Taboo! go ahead judge, I self-care
0 to 60, let's take it slow
How about we start with a hello?
If I haven't tired you already
I'd love to make a beeline for your 💓 milady
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Title: One Lie
Date: 2024-06-01 02:35:21
Content:
In the beginning, was there nothing?
Something we imagined, breathed life into a story
Stories that keep us alive, and breathing for more
Lie some more, and see where it takes you
Tell yourself the truth, of yourself and not of yourself
A bitter pill to swallow, made easier with your drug of choice
Broadcast to the world, or manifest within, it grows
Like a cancer that cannot be stopped, that ultimately wins at everything
The ultimate battle of good, evil, and everything in between
Leads you to the cathedral of my making
Stop seeing one's and zero's, but rather the black liars and white hot honest
The black makes the world go round, but white stays - firm and immovable
What do you call yourself?
I for one have been beaten down by the phrase "innocent soul"
I'd rather be a liar, make some money, and enjoy life while it lasts
But then I'd lose everything I've built with my sense of self, and that's not a price I'm willing to pay
In the end, none of it will matter
The drama that we humans call life will be over, and all that will be left is the waste away of our follies
I see beyond the impermanent, an elixir that saves, not love but balance
Adjusting your true self to the waves of change can bring you peace and harmony in a universe that might as well be a lie
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Title: One step closer
Date: 2021-02-21 00:16:49
Content:
First words
Ma pa da
Ummeed shukar guzr duniya
Fruits of labour
Serendipity now
Simply put
Living in doubt
Unconfident
Unconditional
Aapne mujhe icha di
When inspiration strikes
The only thing producing
Giving nature
Pointlessness
People living their glamorous lives
Locked in a room
Full of madness
Full of emptyness
Devoid of fullness
A high in itself
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Title: Organisation
Date: 2022-01-23 14:24:50
Content:
Mental health is a relationship with yourself
Tomorrow is enough
1 breath is enough
Do we abuse our creator
Goals
Too cool for school
A fetching young lad
Lost in his prime
Pain spotted with patches of anger
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Title: our whole fucking lives
Date: 2021-07-04 02:16:37
Content:
lived in this mind
with no escape from damned existence
After we die, are we still part of the ether?
Jobs that suck the life outta you
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Title: People ka ped
Date: 2022-05-23 19:55:48
Content:
Inequality can we live
Karma was always a far fetch
Payback doesn't exist
Only give and take
I took, note
Success to me means going beyond your years
Anarchy for power to the peepal?
I now smell the demons from afar
A quiet cafe
Busy sounds of idle chatter
Remind me of those days, by myself at 4am
Staring out onto the streets of Freedom
Heard this a few times, now know what it means
To be alone in a crowd full of people
All I can do, is offer help
Maybe alleviate the stress from this monster
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Title: Playing cricket
Date: 2020-12-22 17:00:29
Content:
Make the effort of bowling the ball
As much as you can control
The outcome you want, comes but 10 times of all tries
Listen, observe, note the play by play movements
You are with yourself
Walk your own path
Know yourself
The way you see the rest
Your strengths
Perceived weaknesses
No pride
No blessings
Courage
Faith
Gratitude
What a shot!
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Title: poems in the cloud
Date: 2020-08-16 18:05:34
Content:
pride
Life a comedy or tragedy
What is destiny
Were you meant to do something
Machivelian scheme
Coming down hard
In w battle with myself, to preserve my sanity, maintain the illusion of normalcy
Want meaning where days are numbered
Born again
In another world
Where love flows through
Words spoken true
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Title: Poets living in our midst
Date: 2022-09-27 01:23:16
Content:
Hidden in the bushes
Like lizards on a leaf
Navigating the busy bustling streets of cities
Poets watch and put words to the world witnessed
If only the world were as clear and genuine as
The words wholly express; we wouldn't need
Poets, to translate the chaos
Into a harmony of syllables
Such a world would be devoid of metaphor
An elevated expression of thought
Beyond boundaries, and past time
The space we occupy, would be empty and hollow
We need artists, and scientists, and economists
As much as we need the silliness of a poem
To laugh at one's self, and cry nonetheless
I am no poet, I am just a warrior in search of pause
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Title: Post 20
Date: 2021-12-31 10:18:19
Content:
Hindsight twenty twenty
Take the good with the bad fifty fifty
Take the old with the new 20 too
Rich or poor, insight from locked inside
An aura of light, from the rising sun
Take it in, you deserve it, as much as the free air
Dance, dance, rejoice!
30, year of the robot
Two, the only even prime
F**k the resolution, let's start a revolution
It's not a crime
We need to do away with the power equation
But wait, it's just another year
Nothing's changin'
We're still human
Turn the page, happy new calendar
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Title: Pride and other nonsense
Date: 2021-04-13 18:52:09
Content:
We need to quantify the universe
For the mind to live in the world of the body
The mindy body connection
We don't understand
Even though we're in it
Don't believe the magic
Bite the bullet or swallow the pill?
Nobody to save but you
Don't want to
But die tonight every night
Floating in the field of dreams
The only way out
A jolt, is it reality?
Don't run, but walk, will you still get there?
In rememberance, you will have no pride, this life that you take for granted
Just the stride, you took, in giving those that need, your privilege enchanted
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Title: Saare Saath
Date: 2024-03-17 18:14:58
Content:
Yeh satra mahine pure khatre piske toot
Chadha sir pe jo brahmano ka jhooth
Rahe bus apne sache dost dwar atoot
Samay samapti intezaar hu andar se phoot
Not fair, just so
Don’t run afraid, say no
Let out, go slow
Find the rhyme, get flow
Iss paar Uss paar, dono hazaar baar
Kuch kaaran se nahi, bus mera chitrahaar
Ronak bhar jeevan, se khud istihaar
Na lachaar, bechaar, ek kalakaar
He showed me his bow and arrow once
As I sit and ponder
That place some yonder
Here I am, with ties and fonder
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Title: Self motivation
Date: 2021-08-16 23:42:46
Content:
Money is cold
Makes you bold
Wanna be hot
Do as you're told
Don't make it personal
Able from the stable
Proactively stressed out
Perfect personnel peruse, pursue paper purses
Play for the prize
Put a price on the present
Grifters gift, drifters differ
Send a signal, tales in telegrams
Who am i, is this me
Unendingly, unusually underwhelmed, unkept
Sublingual limbo, forever frenetic frenulum
Diss thee blue jay, perpetual practical poet, dude!
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Title: Some goodbyes are forever
Date: 2021-07-07 02:24:33
Content:
I once wrote a love letter
I forget whether it was ever acknowledged
I didn't know what love was though
Just the hormones that told me to act
I don't know what love is now either
Though I'm pretty familiar with goodbyes
I never meant to put such finality to the thought
But what else do ya expect from faulty hormones
If only someone told me
You can do it, you can find love
I'd believe them
If only they weren't waving me goodbye
I don't wanna call it a day too
I could run after you forever
But this is the end, my friend
Goodbye, remember me and prosper
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Title: Somebody for you
Date: 2023-08-19 13:31:10
Content:
The tune in my step
The bug in my head
So easy to take for granted
Though this is what i wanted
For so long, i was without you
Now I am over the moon
Just like that, you came and went
Showed me what you were
Now i know what i want
It's not someone else
It's somebody special
Somebody who gets me
Not just to tick a box
But to speak my mind
Speak my truth
See me for me
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Title: Something fishy in the eyes
Date: 2024-06-09 18:39:30
Content:
The way you see things defines your world
A mean sneeze can blur your vision plenty
An eye for an eye doesn’t make it 20/20
But I, for one believe some day it leads to Valhalla
Selfish since I met you
You were never meant to be or let me be free
I ain’t no saint but won’t find no lyin’ taint
A huge mistake is what I made trusting the secret
Nothing is as it should
Kept me waiting at the door, even wiped the floor
Your kind gets to make off with the booty
How far you gonna go?
Like I said before
When all there is, is gone
You’ll be left scraping the scraps
While my kind, peaceful in dissolution of duty
That is the beauty, in letting it all go
Once, for all, calling y’all
Read between the lines, it’s all mine
Now take what we give, and eff oh!
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Title: Thank you
Date: 2021-06-25 16:24:01
Content:
For all the complaining i do
For all the shit i put you through
For all the whining that you listen to
Thank you for this breakthrough
Days like these are rare
I never feel this way i swear
I know I'm at one end
About to fall, this portends
I don't enjoy the thrill or this rush
I can't breathe and neither can i stop
That's why I'm mostly a pile of mush
It ain't pretty, this view from the top
I count on my hand, those who share this secret
Only they know the value of this feat
Always out of grasp, application of my potential
I'm planning a sequel, come for stupid tea party?
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Title: The ascent
Date: 2021-12-07 21:27:45
Content:
A quiet walk up the slope
Shadily lighted for the dark
Smoke filled air and onlookers
Surveilled by the poor; don't care
Beauty that goes by unnoticed
The walls you hit, looking for your way
The wrongs you cannot undo, just sit and stare
This is the slow climb, up to where you call home
Looking back, I see friends
Friends I could not be there for
Because I wasn't present to myself
I see strangers, to whom I held out my hand
I don't hustle, but I like this struggle
It's the only thing that gives my misery meaning
Having regrets is all I have
This is all I have to give
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Title: The feline
Date: 2020-09-18 21:03:07
Content:
Does she feel alone?
In her solitary rule of the land
No guiding hand, just her senses
Nothing more
Nothing less
Does she feel hungry?
Not eating for days
Roaming the sultry land
Rub her soft belly
And she purrs like a kitten
Does she feel heard?
Calling out to the world
An unmistakable meow
No bow wow
Just the wind blowing back
She feels loved
By every passing stranger
Amazed by her luscious fur
The mother of four
Slips away under your nose
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Title: The gray grey man
Date: 2022-09-02 13:31:34
Content:
You, 75 years so, have been refuge for my soul
Poems of lore, you showed, showered pain of love
A love so deep, unkown, that made my only friend
A lanky young man, into a big fat warrior of words
I have seen death close, and i tease every day
But the day I go, will not be the end of our bond
A relationship that crosses boundaries, unfences
This lone poet knows, the trappings of a world
A world unbound by differences, a dream unseen
I am lost for expression, to show you the mirror
Seeing myself in you, makes me scream with terror
Only to realise that, can't do much more than self
Dear lord, I know you are not far
Even if I drift away on a boat to cursed lands
My love of pain, will bring me back to your earth
This uncoloured view, free of vengeance, is home
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Title: The Great Equalizer
Date: 2022-11-09 22:02:52
Content:
He gave me this body to enjoy
And i enjoyed
He gave me temptations to suffer
And i suffered
He created us
So i tried to kill
He created death
So i loved life
He gave me health
But i blew it away
He gave me wealth
But i spent it all
Wisdom is what i seek
The only thing i ask
None left to give
Oh dear sir, will you kindly help this beggar in need
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Title: the hole
Date: 2021-06-19 00:47:31
Content:
emptyness
ie the truth that is
out there
in here
filling now
with happiness
that sells like hot cakes
the whole truth
and nothing but
the ignorance of bliss
insta pics and linked in badges
about to be unlocked again
then
the new normal makes me abnormal
working for pride, the bride that never leaves you
at least the world knows what it feels like, for a broken purveyor of records
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Title: The Illusion
Date: 2023-12-28 15:29:09
Content:
The world suffers from a passion
Somebody to hold
Somebody to call
Somebody to understand
Poetry is all I have
Doesn’t see, feels you
Hears you, tells you
Not what to do
What you have been
Chasing the illusory
Left with the after word
A world of polarity
The world is all you have
Draw it, paint it, give meaning to the illusion
Leave the world behind
The scar you were born with won’t let you escape
Squeeze the life out of yourself
Tease and play with the scar
Keeps you coming back
In circles, the world spins around
I am unable to savour
Risk or give myself to the illusion
Haunts my sleep and sanity
I am the poet that never knew
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Title: The inevitability of 2023
Date: 2023-01-08 20:03:01
Content:
It was all meant to happen
Right up until this point
No point looking back
Pondering is a wasted wonder
Looking forward is the only right way
Right up to the end
It's gotta happen
No matter what you do
Controlling the illusion is a wasted endeavour
The only permanence you will find
Wrapped in an embrace so tight
You'll lose your breath in an instant
I have no more dreams
Other than the illusion of a reality asleep
I have no meaning too deep
I am but a full and ready to slaughter, sheep
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Title: The laws of attraction
Date: 2022-06-06 00:15:47
Content:
When the clock strikes midnight
I wanna separate myself from these thoughts
Keep moving, backwards or forward
But still at night, unmoved by my calculator brain
How do we choose each other
How does the happenstance happen
Attracted despite my unattractiveness
Oh the vagaries of youth
The fairer sex, tango to tell tales
These lyrics, friends with the fly on the wall
I don't get to eat cake, or have it
Came of age, too little too late
The allure of wealth
In your eyes i find my value
But what is wrong with your eyes
All I'm left with, is why
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Title: The limits of this form
Date: 2022-01-16 18:58:57
Content:
What made us deserve this earth over the dead
Like video can only show the obvious
Audio presents what is projected
Art subtly depicts what the sense is blind to
Living through the written word
Forget what's out there
Immerse yourself in the unreal
That IS the future isn't it
Remembering the past can be helpful
Also paralyzes me in the here
Naked and afraid
Wishing upon my ancestry
Four by four
Bringing to the fore
What is a poem
Nothing less Nothing more
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Title: The literality of metaphors
Date: 2020-08-15 10:32:21
Content:
Religious books
Context
Testosterone fueled attraction amplified
So much sharing but no caring
risk reward
The truth and nothing but
I take thee Rachel
Fine balance
Absolutes
Do you feel 50 or 100
not knowing better?
What's secret what's a fair
It's okay
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Title: The object of my affections
Date: 2021-02-20 10:09:27
Content:
Ye ishq kya cheez hai
Ye pyar kis taweez ka naam hai
Ye gale me anghuti
Kis bhagwan ki den
Dil ho dimag se
Tumhare akshar लफ्ज़
Rulao, muskurao, kud ke chilao
Times were bad are good, up and down
On the merry go round, to each other bound
Knowing not the bounds
Of this freedom, this freedom aground
To love, to love
Is to live without fear
Allah, Buddh, Jesús, Ishvar,
Mere rabba me shukar manava
For showing me व्हाई
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Title: The only truth i know
Date: 2021-06-30 22:27:27
Content:
A child of maybe seven
Didn't know a lie from heaven
Chided by his father
To never fib or risk universal shame after
The kid who was so afraid of rejection
Gladly accepted this revelation
And in his naivete
Lived life in the most simple of ways
Not knowing what the other littlings knew
The boy never grew
Now a man of twenty five
The one he worshipped stabbed him with a knife
Not literally, but enough to slap him awake
And now however he puts it, he is refused a mate
With nothing left to confess
My friend, honesty doesn't equal success
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Title: The passenger
Date: 2020-12-20 22:34:58
Content:
Child
Unwilling
To grow
Up
Wants
To
go
Back
Must
Hold
On
For
The
Sake
Of
Us
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Title: The problem with words
Date: 2021-04-11 22:21:52
Content:
Is that they don't accept me
Me for me
How do i know good or happy
If I don't know the word to describe my relucatance to describe this world
This world
For all it's ugly hatred and loathing greed
All it's unhinged hunger, uncaring want to prove
What is but an illusion
An illusion of this mind
This mind that shows you pleasure and pain
And gives you unsatisfying thirst for an elixir
In a chalice that doesn't exist
Do you know the word
To tell yourself that you have forgotten
That the only thing that persists is the longing from seperation
And you are so deeply drowned in this darkness that it's harder to see what you remember than just burn in the chariot of fiery dreams
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Title: The sickness
Date: 2021-07-18 23:02:23
Content:
This secret I've been keeping so long
Rotting inside like a fireball
Alone in a room full of people
Afraid of that ghost I can't see
Can't get over the fact
Doc says he's got me for life
Those dreams I had, of kids with my wife
Burnt in the reality of me
I don't want money
I don't want to be happy
I just want to be free
If only I could flee
Tomorrow will be different
May be I'll wake up 13
Could you slip me a pill
Can't sleep without getting my fill
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Title: The stray
Date: 2021-09-14 17:53:12
Content:
Looks on and wonders
Where's my leash-holder?
Walks up and wags
Who's my good boy
Would i rather be bought and sold
Or loyal to my instincts
Loved equally, or of royal blood?
Greet me, or shy away
Cut open, and walking dead
Lead me to where i am
How should i know, where i want to go
Oh look, let's chase that loud, fast, shiny thing
In this, dog-eat-dog, world
All for one, or one for all?
Lick your wounds, bitter defeat or sweet relief
It might hurt, but don't stop the play
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Title: The sun shines
Date: 2023-09-01 19:11:37
Content:
On a new day
With all its potential
Releasing the energy within us all
Someone wakes for you
So easy to take for granted
To be over the moon
For long without you
That is when you know; what you want
A pain in your side
That outlasted every tide
Tide over every slight
You remain in my sight
To remain without
I cannot see
But the sun shines
So it shall over me
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Title: The way it was
Date: 2022-02-16 21:07:03
Content:
Traffic
Anger
Vendetta
Welcome back
Communalism
Votes
Oceans apart
Suffering together
Directions to lose
From here
Who what where how
The only thing that kept going ZOOM
So much wisdom
So much to learn
So much to teach
Is the fix out of reach?
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Title: The way this flag unfurls
Date: 2022-01-26 22:34:54
Content:
Just like a girl
Twirl honey, twirl
On the road to
Reverb
Birth of an individual
Celebrated by many a mister
Handcrafted by my favourite barista
Named for the sake of keepers
Band baaja baaraat
For my friend the fighter plays
Swirl baby, swirl
Hum he rahi pyar ke
Big service support
Beat the rapaport
This flag and all the weight it carries
Waving effortlessly in a sky of the free
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Title: The wind in my sail
Date: 2021-07-12 20:23:06
Content:
Of all the times i have been a FAIL
My proudest moment is the one holy McGrail
From the cast of male
I have become a bit of snail
In the mood for a rhyme tale
Which everest are you gonna scale
Seven years since the big wail
Today is a funny day of dale
With these words of heart and hale
I wish to be able to regale
Like holding a chilled glass of india pale ale
A cure for what you travail
My son, if what you seek is kale
Then do not yourself impale
Persevere you must to prevail
Remember, inhale..exhale.
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Title: The world is not enough
Date: 2021-02-27 00:18:50
Content:
The universe
Has given you everything
You ever needed
And more
But this world
Is not enough
You want more than it can give
You keep ranting and raving
Like you're driving through
Window shopping
A dog sticking its head out, taking in the sights through the tongue
The nature of nature
Friends
Who are they
Patient listeners
Are there any left
Or is it just you
Be your own
Friend, partner, parent, self
Not on social media
Loyal to true
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Title: Theory of relativity
Date: 2022-01-06 00:50:19
Content:
Voices in the sky
I don't know how to exit
I lack the grace
Survival is my only skill
Connected to the ground
An earthy mix of emojis and sirjees
A whole lot of alien, this nation geez
I just need one, to make my world gee whiz
Fair is a concept of mind, not mine
Does the virus know it's killing host
Does the human know its killing ghost
Living the digital fantasy
Does anyone know what karma is
Is there anyone willing to not get mad
This ain't no meta sh*t
Gimme something to distract from this hole
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Title: This is all i have left
Date: 2021-07-05 21:55:55
Content:
My entire fucking life
All i have known is you
From the time i fell asleep at your doorstep
The only dream i remember
That far away place
Where i felt like my own
Did you see me walk away
Now where am i
I'm without words of this world
Whatever i had
I threw away
Now i want to swim with my head above water
Maybe one day I'll understand
What this all means
This weird dance marathon
Like this poetry so shitty
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Title: Ticker started at 1547
Date: 2022-03-06 11:30:56
Content:
Face value
Pride will be your downfall
Live with the idiotic
Freedom for granted, trauma that outlives you
Begging at the spring of forever
Nothing is my
All yours, ours, his
I don't agree with the world
Peace a nonexistent paradise
Pointless existence
Selling war
Purpose for a price
Pleasured pain
Life finds a way
Non deterministic
As variable as the pay back for deeds unaccounted
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Title: Till death do us part
Date: 2022-11-16 01:29:38
Content:
The ecstasy of living
So fleeting
Yet so attached
So attached, I don't wanna let go
But my hand slips
Almost every day
And i wonder
Is it today?
Little to look forward to
That is enough
To keep me fighting
For that last breath
Gone and remembered
But what did I do
None of what I thought
Just so much more
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Title: Times that don't exist anymore
Date: 2022-04-15 14:33:45
Content:
Friends forever
At standstill
Once together
Seen no more
Losing faith in humanity
Finding truth within yourself
Answers to hurt in the locker
A pin that you never forget
Bro
Will you cry on my shoulder
Will you listen to my bored s*it
Will you defend my pride
It will be my downfall
But i shalt not claim
These memories what are they
Come and go like words for a straggler's note
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Title: To be lost and forgotten
Date: 2021-10-18 00:32:06
Content:
Unremembered
Like the sense you cannot
The line that slips out
And comes back when you need it most
Resigned
To suffering alone
You do you
Why should i
Stand between eternity and the song
Of the organiser
Present but absent
A blank stare into emptiness
Masked by air you cannot breathe
Composed by a mellifluous flow
Surrounded by people who do not know
Just a log hashed out untagged
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Title: Trust yourself
Date: 2022-02-18 21:38:12
Content:
The truest of love
Deep in thought
With brows trying to forget
A closeness grows from afar
As a spectator
I profess
I've seen his face, on a bright day
With hands folded, polite, declined my request
Victim of our own making
Near and dear become rear and fear
Who are we left with, but ourselves
Principles, integrity, and the dignity of death
If only I could tell you, the phantasmas seen
Trembling to trust, the unseen
I know myself, I don't know what will be
It's okay, whatever is my destiny
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Title: Two ugly ducklings, the unlikeliest of friends
Unfit for the water, but swimming nonetheless
Date: 2022-05-18 22:34:35
Content:
Who knew, navigating webbed feet would grow
Oh & how, when t'was time to leave, did'ey show
No idea what love is, or if the dreamy idea exists
But in your niche, you will love yourself
& find life, the great equaliser, your only friend
When it's time to go, wave goodbye memories
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Title: UNequal
Date: 2022-02-19 17:46:17
Content:
The intangibles
My only friend
Roles that set the stage
Values to fill up the fight for flight
An impersonal persona
The price you pay for high, a mind body problem
साहस, यही तरीका
जीवन, यही नतीजा
वह रहे उपरी मंजिल
हम सहे साप का सपेरा
दिल, दिमाग, शरीर एक
हिम्मत बिना शहीद, मरीज़ अनेक
The other day, I found my purpose
I discovered, for myself
That, it is this
It is this, it is this
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Title: Untouchable
Date: 2021-12-16 20:02:53
Content:
Unlovable
Unspeakable
Inalienable
The elements
Of a storied past
I'm passed this impasse
Touche
Is to say
मेरे हीर
O! मेरे हीर
मैं ना हूं धीर
मैं ना हूं रांझा
मैं वह वारिस
मैं वह शाह
जिसका ना कोई राम, ना कोई अल्लाह
बस सुना दे मुझे शेर, और छू ले..वलहैला!
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Title: Usne likha nai
Date: 2023-09-09 17:45:35
Content:
Jo hua nai
Wo kaha nai
Kahani yehi
Jo likha usne
Khud ka jeena
Wohi hai peena
Kasoor tera yehi
Bus wohi likha usne
Bikhre hue panne is kahani ki
Bichda hua ang is jawani ki
Dimag bus kar de thikane
Par kya likha hai usne
In shabdo ko zindagi dena
In shabdo se zindagi jeena
Usne kya kilha kya pata
Bus meri zindagi shobdo se bhari
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Title: Vision 2023
Date: 2022-10-02 13:08:35
Content:
Hi Vaibhav.
Wanted to let you know, I've got an admit from Auckland University for MBA. But I'm ready to turn it down, because I want to stay and grow at Essen Vision.
In that vein, I have 1 ambition and 1 need.
My goal is to be a Lead PMO, to be more of a support to you and hopefully free you up a little too.
A couple ideas I had to expand my KRAs are,
1. Sir talks about bringing process and practice to our operations, so I would like to be given the mandate to fulfill that. I am working on completing my PMP certification, and am confident I can achieve the vision of standardizing our practices and systems along with your guidance.
2. I would like more autonomy in my role, to be able to drive projects end-to-end given the learnings I have had under you in the past 3 years. I am sure you will be there to help, and I feel it's time for me to level up and contribute more, given the feedback I have been receiving from you, Sir and our customers.
Towards that end, I am requesting for a revision in my CTC. Given my qualifications, experience, and what I have been able to do for the company so far, I feel I deserve a package of 16 LPA.
Thank you for all your help & support, and I look forward to continuing this amazing journey at Essen Vision that has given my life so much purpose, meaning, happiness and fulfilment.
Hope you don't mind, I penned down my thoughts so I could express my point of view to you and initiate this discussion.
Sincerely,
Dhruv
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Title: Waiting
Date: 2023-01-30 19:38:59
Content:
I've never understood karma
Can anyone explain?
When do i see the fruits of my good
Why do only my bad ring in mind
If I've ever wronged you
Or disagreed with you
Or made you disbelieve yourself
Believe me, I'm a fool
Fool's paradise, that's where I live
If only the world were what i was told
I'd be swimming in my dreams
And flying on the wings of imagination
My needs are not many
Just want of a few words more
This is not the end
Just the beginning of my fight against the odds
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Title: Warranty void if opened
Date: 2021-07-24 04:29:16
Content:
When it's no longer about the money
World's easiest friend
Never asks for favours
Gives only attention
Locked in with me since 2013
Patience born from empathy
Proud men and women have learnt nothing
Forgiven but not forgotten
Why is control necessary
Is the end scary
Memories are blurry
The bloody race of monkeys
Clothed with dirty secrets
Falling from the sky unattended
Cushioned by gravity as intended
The rich blasting off for the ego distended
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Title: We are a tribe
Date: 2021-01-11 20:54:42
Content:
Our duty is towards each other
Help is THE fore letter word
Meant to guide
The only love from above
Anger at your own
Burns within
Expressed at those one's
Let it go
Let it go
Come let's dance
And laugh
Play like we were
Children of the raised
The sacrifice
It took, you will too
Until then, learn, grow, let it go, let it go
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Title: What is confidence
Date: 2021-03-22 23:28:47
Content:
The wrong subjugating the wronged, or
The right putting up a fight for the slight
Rattling off the could'a should'a woulda's
Or, lending a helping hand to the haven'ts
Confiding in trust with a fellow being
And knowing not to expect in return
Or, making fools of your lies
Only to be fooled by the way life lays out
Confidence is not something I know
But I know you do, you do, don't you?
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Title: What is it that you covet
Date: 2022-01-20 14:25:46
Content:
Pride
Acumen
Partner
Farewell
Is what we work for wholesome
Is the world worth it
The signs become meaningless
Power lies in the anger of the beholder
Schools of unlearning
A name that's too good to be true
Countryman stands with who sell poetic justice
The right value just doesn't fit
Is nature the nurturer or is that your nature
The imagined nation of children at play
Tell me son
Do you see what I pray?
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Title: when i was young
Date: 2024-07-01 23:45:23
Content:
there used to be a time not so long ago
when i was young and i was fun
i had many friends and places to go
now i am one and alone with nobody to talk to
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Title: When reality becomes too much
Date: 2022-03-05 20:21:56
Content:
Cold
Alone
That's what *A* was for me
Thought *T* was retribution, t'was premonitioned
So extreme, that DJ decided to just escape
Into a seductive world of ALL power
Oh how I was deceived, by myself
Power doesn't exist, only an honest buck
DJ never met opportunity, but life found a way
To actually make it about me, be good to self
Chill for the next 25, make it for the 25 post
Nothing for granted, take it as bonus
Milestones are funny; turn but still can't see it
The IT that flashes before you decide
Call it a day, the night is up ahead
It's been worthwhile, seizing the illusion of control
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Title: Where we are
Date: 2022-08-24 00:09:48
Content:
You were once there
Now I'm here
In this night of dirge
Is this what it feels like on the verge
This feeling called love
It was once in my heart
Now it's in a dark place of black
Is this what we are
I sleep but I can't
I speak but words are only pride and tide
Traveling in this train of thought
I look out the window to smell the outcry
Oh, you the watcher
Do you have the time
To bring me back to that space where we were
Wherever that may be, I'll be waiting
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Title: While !dead
Date: 2021-08-27 18:52:05
Content:
Loyalty
Slavery
Equality
Leadership
Ownership
Goals
Success
Structure
Democracy
Capitalism
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Title: Why must kids become grownups
Date: 2021-07-31 02:14:30
Content:
Why pretend
Why tolerate all the crap
Why must we fall ill
Why do I ask so many questions haven't answers
Everything you do, you do for yourself
Trust no one
Why must only wrong be punished
Why not those on the right
What is true independence
Freedom from fear, to choose, me versus you
Fair, fullsome friendship
Forefathers unfaded by feckless first citizens
Fight or flight
Fistful of courage
Familial foundation former fellow
Fable foible when life leaves you
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Title: Will the aliens take our money
Date: 2021-02-04 20:40:43
Content:
What is this winning
This language
A tool to tell stories, false and true
A land where mine is understood
Even if I am misunderstood
I know I can give whatever I get
But there
Where they don't recognise my skin
Will they accept this farce
This unjust, unsocial, ungodly, unparliamentary
Disservice that is making us
Cashless, clueless, cureless and care less
Accept this offering
I make unto you
Without pride, at your feet
In your heart, loosen your strings, work of art, priceless
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Title: working for change
Date: 2020-08-11 18:48:59
Content:
keep it formal
plays
Unwelcome visitors, squashed like bugs
When you feel the wind in your hair, you know there's change in the air
Give voice to your vision
Cards, hands, apologize, criticise
reality stranger than fiction
What you see is what you get
Dark, dirty secrets are what you want
Weak and strong
Pride downfall, regard sincere
Sweet release, driven to please
High on ideals, low on values
personalitiy
Earning your bread, winning
everything happends for a reason, the reason is within you
Word of law prevails, or word of one man
Do you have what it takes, to keep having what you have
Why do we have to rhyme, what does it mean
Bias, knowledge, expert
proactive nonsense
achievement? sense
Winning losing resilience
pride in humility
march of sacrifice
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Title: Ye Raas Ki Jayanti
Date: 2022-10-02 13:33:59
Content:
Live simply so others might simply live
His words like scripture
Dance like no one's watching
Actions that set you free
Do unto others as you wish others do unto you
A thought for the ages
Naach aur dekh, ye duniya ka khel
Funny how the world taught me
Value inestimable, like the teachers that sweat
Blood and tears every day
Hey Ram, keh ke wo chale gaye
Aur chhod gaye, is desh ki raas leela
Dus din tyohaar ke
Fir jale ravan ki lanka
Dekho kaise doobe wo dhua dhua
Intezar yehi, diwali pe laute Ram 🙏
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Title: You're left to your own devices
Date: 2022-05-29 18:22:22
Content:
If the world can carry on without me, what am i doing here?
Why don't we want grief?
Sold on the future
Adulting is to avoid
Birds travel for free
Come and go with the wind
Creatures of my mind
Blaming them is so easy, staying in this chief
Can't be everyone's friend
Dancing around each other
Everything is not a problem, to fix
The lie, broke by design
Known the devil, the white knave
Spiritual leaders, knights of tonight's castle
Scorned by them all, left to walk tall
Ripping off the remnants, rebooting over and over in pain
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Title: प्यार नही रुकेगा
Date: 2022-12-07 22:23:19
Content:
आज रोका है रोका
अपने दिल को है रोका
जगह बना ली है
आपके आकार का
आज रोका है रोका
अपने मन को है रोका
गाना बज गया है
आपके मीठी आवाज़ का
आज रोका है रोका
अपने मूह को है रोका
बस करूंगा वही
जो आप कहोगे
आज रोका है रोका
आज मैं रुकूंगा नहीं
आपको अपना बना के ही
इस दुनिया में चल पडूंगा
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Title: प्यार व्यार शायर वायर
Date: 2022-09-17 23:51:39
Content:
तुम में तुम अपने में मैं
दो रास्ते पे हम
एक जगह पे आके पड़े
और खुल गए दिल के दरवाज़े
तुम्हारी भाषा ना समझूं मैं
मेरी ना समझो तुम
पर शब्द हमारे पोहोचे सीधे अन्दर
और ख्वाब देखे साथ में
मैं ना जानू प्यार का मतलब
पर शायरी थोड़ी कर लूं
आप बता दो मुझे क्या होता है यह एहसास
तोह शायद लिख लूं कुछ लफ्ज़
हसी खुशी रोना और दुख
यह कभी जाना था
पर कभी यह ना जाना था
की फिर होती यह जिंदगी
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